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Perhaps I shall always be
so befuddled by the vagaries
space, time, perfect
mathematical equations,

adoring their rigid, precise lines
even while loathing
the isolation,
imposed by my mind,
unable to grasp the slippery concepts,
without patient
and repeated, repeated, repeated
instruction,
and even then,
a little off center...
too unwieldy,
gelatinous bulk quivering
on toe point,
precarious indeed, before
the high wire is added,

I live messily,
despite my teeth gnashing for order,
I move with moods
like the weather,
hurricane subsiding into benevolent rain,
always becoming what I feel,
shapeshifter, I am
often weary
with the energy
necessary to rearrange,
unconsciously...
puzzle pieces sorted
by the wind,
ignoring sunburnt shoulders,
parchment rasping beneath cotton,
to bask in the sun's kiss,
eyes closed before the holy
morning movements,
birdsong, tree sway,
wind ruffled leaves..

I am a different sort of chaos,
conflicted, drifting lazily
until aroused,
longing, always yearning
for stability,
while ever seeking
the wild and uncontrollable,
remaining a mystery
unto myself,
irritating, itching to spread
like poison ivy
on unsuspecting skin.

Maybe a controversial poem..

..but education tends to rip the blinders off..

~ America ~

We wrestle shadows, we
Change the world, we
Scream the loudest, we
Bleed from cuts, we
Made ourselves, we
So self-righteous, we
Have too much, we
Always want more, we
Techno wizards, we
Sell our children, we
Buy our bodies, we
Starve our neighbors, we
Kill nay-sayers, we
So powerful, we
Murder life, we
Crucify freedom, we
Will not stop.

switching houses so to speak

Welcome and glad ya made it! Had to switch blog spots because I'm about to cut AOL loose.. so we'll see how this one works out. Not much else to report at the moment. I'm going to be attempting to move my old posts here, so if I'm incommunicado, that's what I'm up to (besides stats abstracts and snooze-a-rific stuff)